I dont even know where to start! Sammy has spiraled out of control...again. Now we can barely even look at him without a rage begining. He will be starting the day treatment center at therapy instead of his school 3 days a week because he finally started being defiant at school. The problem with school is that his teachers tell us that he is having time outs there and then they tell the therapists that he is fine. And as an added bonus, the therapists are saying it is something I am doing that is causing this. Thats really what i need. Something to make me feel even worse about things and to have this nagging voice in my head saying that I am doing something to cause this. After Sammys 30 minute rage yesterday, I called the therapist and asked him exactly what it is that I am doing that causes this behavior. Guess what.. There was no answer. He doesnt know what i am doing. The thing is, I know in my heart of hearts that there is something really going on in that head of his. A lot of times he just doesnt understand what is being said to him. He a lot of times just chooses to speak jibberish instead of using his words. He doesnt not accept correction or help in any way. If you do, he goes into a rage. He is violent, throws things deliberatly to hurt or break something, he bangs his head on the ground. He gave himself a black eye last week from doing that. We have shown him over a million times...kid you not.. how to hold a cup with a lid and straw. If you tilt it it dumps. Everytime, is like the time before didnt exist. He tilts it and it dumps all over him and he gets upset...meal over! That is just an example of how you can show him or teach him something over and over and he just doesnt get it. People say Brian and I are crazy but they dont look at the details with him. He has 18 other kids in his class. They arent noticing tiny details of what Sammy is doing. I need our Mayo Clinic appointment to get here. I need to know what is happening with our little boy. I need to have a plan of action of how to deal with him because our life is unlivable!