Buddy, I am so sorry that you are having a rough go of it right now. I can not believe there are no places you can go for counseling. Most churches around here will counsel even if you are not a member. Here we also have something similar to a group practice that is run by several different churches. They are free or low cost. Also, are you near a University? When we were looking for help for difficult child, one of the places they recommended was the psychiatric Dept. of our local University. It was only going to be a few dollars per session, and doctoral students were the ones running the sessions. It might be something else you could look into.
Get yourself to the Dr. and back on the Lexapro or something similar. At least for awhile. Let everything settle for a little bit. Take care of yourself friend.
