Welcome! I'm sorry for your hurting heart. Your story is a familiar one here. On these pages you will find wonderful support and encouragement.
I'm glad you are seeing a therapist. Please know that while your daughter may suffer from a form of mental illness there is nothing you can do for her. She has to recognize for herself and want to get help for herself. All you can do is try to live your life the very best you can.
As hard as it is to accept, sometimes we have to do just that and accept that we will never have that warm fuzzy loving relationship with our kids that we want.
I'm glad you are here with us. Others will come along and share.
((HUGS)) to you.