I'm sorry Pasa.
You did, in my opinion, the right thing. Perhaps, the only thing you could do. I know it feels bad to do what you did, but do everything you can to release that guilt, that "lower than a snakes belly" feeling, because you did what you had to do. Your sons behavior lead to the choice you made, you didn't just make a choice all by itself. Try to remember that part.......our kids force these choices on us and then WE suffer the consequences, not them. You are putting the consequences where they belong, with him.
What helps me when it gets like this, is to place my daughter in the hands of my perception of a Higher Power. Realizing that I am powerless in this situation. You are powerless. You only have control over your response and your response was appropriate.
Sending you big hugs. And prayers that you and your son find peace.
