so i openly admit it i'm having a problem balancing work and home. ahhh i feel better i said it. i have been struggling for a while now balancing it. everyone says (at work) that it is very overwhelming initially and takes a while to learn how to juggle it all. yet when i started no one mentioned how i'd be out of the house 2 nights a week on visits, nor how in a mos. i'd be required to run a support group from the office another night a week. it's great in a sense 5 days a week i'm able to start my day after i drop difficult child at school, and 3 days a week i pick up both kids from school and get to spend time with them two of those days than i head back off to work again till 8 or so. imiss dinner with-them. i hate that. dinner to me is so so important. i said to myself before i started i won't be one of those ppl who put others kids before my own, i will find my balance. well, i'Tourette's Syndrome been a little over 3 mos i have yet to find my balance with-it. the ppl i work with are great, they truly are and it makes it that much more worth it, the families truly need the program another plus that we're in there diong some good. yet my kids i get very torn two nights a week when i walk out on them. it takes a while to refocus myself and justify what i am doing by leaving them. i actually told my boss sorry but tuesdays are off limits she said to me well maybe you could alternate them. i said no i won't do them bottom line my difficult child's therapy is that night and so is our counseling later that night and our date night once a mos. tuesdays a big night lol. they just throw out their demands and expect them to be met. also i now have vacation time. i took a day today due to dr thing, yet even though you take vacation you still have to make your monthly quota. so their constantly cramming that down your throat the quota, your numbers, emails, things in my mailbox etc. after a while you just want to scream. let's not even get into the issues i walk into and how they can trigger me from time to time. i'm handling it well, yet boyfriend has said thati have had a few nightmares on certain nights after being with-certain clients. ok i feel better i'v shared this now. i'm eating up boards with-my junk past few days sorry. see i'm making up for lost time.