More detail to the story. K was very verbally abused and sexually by her bio father. The things he said to her were trashy and demeaning and that's an understatement. He offered his friend to sleep with her for money. He sent a picture of his penis to her. This started the long journey we have been on. She was a virgin at the time and he allowed her to have guys over and well you know what happened. She began using prescription medications at her dads house, smoking weed and drinking. He allowed it and I knew nothing of it. A few months later I felt like something was wrong (holy spirit) and drive to her school and asked her if she needed to tell me something. She poured her heart out. We filed charges but it was a he said she said case as there were no evidence so nothing was done. Last year when she graduated she went to Vegas and that's when the heavy drugs started, Molly, meth, and not sure what else but I was unaware until January this year. She has been asked to leave home four times now with each time me allowing her to come back. She has physically assaulted me five times with each time hitting me with fists 20 or 30 times. She has been on meth and was shooting up in her arms, hands and feet. This destroyed my heart. She asked for help and I took her to ER. She was in rehab for 8 days. Was going to stay with a preacher and his family fir a while but I wanted to spend time with her once more and she left and used again. Called four days later and wanted to come home. I said no but picked her up and drove three hours to the preachers house. She was there got almost two weeks and went to a six week program about two hours from me. Hot kicked out for not following rules on the fifth week. I traveled 638 miles in three days trying to find a place for her. She ended up going to a homeless shelter and stayed there about five weeks and they said it wasn't structured enough for her and sent her to teen challenge. There she refused to respect others and follow rules which has been her problem for years. Respect and rules. I am at the end of myself. I don't want to kill myself but I would love for God to take me away. I don't want to get out of bed or leave home or see people. I just want to go away. I can't seem to detach. I don't know how to set boundaries my marriage is a wreck and I have lost myself. I'm not like this everyday. In fact it comes in phases. Actually comes when she throws a curveball into what seems to be so good. Then I fall apart. I am a wreck I can't make decisions and it feels never ending with her. I love her with everything I have in me and I would do anything to help her but I have spent thousands and I mean thousands on hospital, counseling and facilities but to no avail. I know I need help but it seems so big I don't know where to start. When I read the detach list it overwhelmed me. It's too much and I need a little at a time. I feel like I am losing it mentally.
