Hi, how is everyone doing?

[LetGo]

It's been a little bit quiet. It could be the heat added to everything else. How is everyone doing?
LetGo

 

[Beta]

Feeling sad and angry. Lots of thoughts of our son, Josh. Wondering how he's holding up in the Phoenix heat, why he won't contact us, if he ever thinks of us. Praying over and over. Wondering if this is how the story ends, with us not knowing what happened to him and lots of questions.

Sorry to be so negative.

 

[ksm]

I get it...it's hard to "turn the channel" when you get stuck thinking about things. I go thru similar situations, but at least I get to see my granddaughter. But it still is hard when nothing changes or improves. Not knowing is the hardest. Hugs. Ksm

 

[Copabanana]

Sorry to be so negative.

Hi Beta. What we go through is the hardest thing in the world. How do you go through "the hardest thing in the world" with a happy face?

 

[Beta]

I guess I manage to compartmentalize things. When I go to work, I set aside my thoughts and emotions on what we're going through. If I didn't I wouldn't be able to focus and do what I need to do. During the day, I stay busy and try to keep my mind focused on other things. The hardest time is at night, especially in the middle of the night when I awaken briefly. Sometimes I have to take a dog outside, and I look up at the stars and wonder where he is and if he's okay. I pray and ask God to surround him with His protection and grace. Prayer is all I have. Sometimes when I'm cooking something, I will allow myself to daydream about how great it would be to have him here, enjoying the meal with us.
I don't know what else to do anymore. I've posted on Phoenix facebook pages and no longer get much of any response from people. I guess people have seen it before and no longer bother. I've got a missing person's report filed but I don't know that that will offer anything. I'm afraid that I may never see or hear from him again. I try not to dwell on that though because I know the story is not over yet and anything could happen.

 

[LetGo]

Feeling sad and angry. Lots of thoughts of our son, Josh. Wondering how he's holding up in the Phoenix heat, why he won't contact us, if he ever thinks of us. Praying over and over. Wondering if this is how the story ends, with us not knowing what happened to him and lots of questions.

Sorry to be so negative.

Please don't apologize. That's why we are here and lucky to have this place. I believe we all share sad and angry feelings about our kids. Hugs, LetGo