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<blockquote data-quote="New Leaf" data-source="post: 674365" data-attributes="member: 19522"><p>Thank you Okie, it is the deepest pain. My situation is no less, or more than yours.</p><p>A mothers grief and pain, is just that.</p><p>We share the same pain, and I am sorrowed by your heart ache, dear warrior sister.</p><p></p><p>My heart goes out to you, and all of us who are faced with this.</p><p></p><p>I was sitting in the auditorium,</p><p>watching Boy play in the band.</p><p>His shadow cast upon the wall behind him,</p><p>sharp and clear.</p><p>His fingers dancing on</p><p>the gold of his instrument,</p><p>reflected in shades of black</p><p>upon the white wall,</p><p>mirroring his moves.</p><p>I felt a slipping</p><p>into my shadow self.</p><p>A way to deal with the intensity of feelings.</p><p>Shadow self,</p><p>cast from the fire</p><p>of the burning sorrow</p><p>that consumed me.</p><p>I remained next to my body</p><p>my shadow self,</p><p>and watched</p><p>the concert,</p><p>watched</p><p>as I smiled</p><p>and praised my boy.</p><p>Watched as I held him tight.</p><p>Shadow self</p><p>drove home</p><p>and fell into a fitful sleep</p><p>awakened</p><p>whole again</p><p>in the wee morning hours</p><p>to despair.</p><p></p><p>I am a bit better this afternoon.</p><p>But I do believe, Okie, despite feeling this way, that I am getting better.</p><p>My old response would have been to try something,</p><p>anything to "help" my daughter.</p><p>Perhaps, the desperation I was feeling this early morning,</p><p>was in the realization that there is <em>nothing I can do. </em></p><p>The more that I am used to that feeling,</p><p>I am hoping, the less I will be dismayed.</p><p>I am trying to get to a place of inner peace.</p><p>Maybe that is the problem, too, <em>trying to get there.</em></p><p>I need to understand that it will come,</p><p>when the time is ready.</p><p></p><p>"<a href="http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/eckharttol571625.html" target="_blank">To know yourself as the Being underneath the thinker, the stillness underneath the mental noise, the love and joy underneath the pain, is freedom, salvation, enlightenment.</a>"</p><p><a href="http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/eckharttol571625.html" target="_blank">Eckhart Tolle</a></p><p></p><p>Thank you Okie, your aloha shines brightly.</p><p>(((HUGS)))</p><p>leafy</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="New Leaf, post: 674365, member: 19522"] Thank you Okie, it is the deepest pain. My situation is no less, or more than yours. A mothers grief and pain, is just that. We share the same pain, and I am sorrowed by your heart ache, dear warrior sister. My heart goes out to you, and all of us who are faced with this. I was sitting in the auditorium, watching Boy play in the band. His shadow cast upon the wall behind him, sharp and clear. His fingers dancing on the gold of his instrument, reflected in shades of black upon the white wall, mirroring his moves. I felt a slipping into my shadow self. A way to deal with the intensity of feelings. Shadow self, cast from the fire of the burning sorrow that consumed me. I remained next to my body my shadow self, and watched the concert, watched as I smiled and praised my boy. Watched as I held him tight. Shadow self drove home and fell into a fitful sleep awakened whole again in the wee morning hours to despair. I am a bit better this afternoon. But I do believe, Okie, despite feeling this way, that I am getting better. My old response would have been to try something, anything to "help" my daughter. Perhaps, the desperation I was feeling this early morning, was in the realization that there is [I]nothing I can do. [/I] The more that I am used to that feeling, I am hoping, the less I will be dismayed. I am trying to get to a place of inner peace. Maybe that is the problem, too, [I]trying to get there.[/I] I need to understand that it will come, when the time is ready. "[URL='http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/eckharttol571625.html']To know yourself as the Being underneath the thinker, the stillness underneath the mental noise, the love and joy underneath the pain, is freedom, salvation, enlightenment.[/URL]" [URL='http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/eckharttol571625.html']Eckhart Tolle[/URL] Thank you Okie, your aloha shines brightly. (((HUGS))) leafy [/QUOTE]
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