Right now Jess is huddled in bed trying not to cry. She hurts. It is BAD. 9 or higher on the pain scale from her neck down to her thighs. NO medications. ALL she has are cold packs or hot packs, whichever she wants. When the nurses/aides/therapists/whoevers are here she tells them it is a 9 or an 8 on the pain scale but she is smiling and cooperative with them for the most part. She got up and walked around and chatted pleasantly with them when they wanted to walk her to the library and then took her all over the first floor as well (library is not on the first floor.). She hurt like Hades but never let it show. I do not think that they are going to really treat the pain because she is always nice and smiling and cooperative. To get right down to it, she just doesn't act like she is in pain. I do NOT doubt that she is in severe pain. I don't know if they do. They act like she just needs to get moving and stay moving and all of this will go away. As if we haven't already tried that, DUH! HOW do I get her to show the people how much she is hurting. She will show ME after they leave, but she is doing all she can to hide it from them. This started back when Wiz was abusing her, but then it became a habit, an unconscious behavior. HOW do I get her to really SHOW them how miserable she is? I am afraid that they won't treat this effectively because she doesn't LOOK like she is in pain. She is very private about it and feels embarrassed if she shows pain to anyone. I have talked to her about it many times and it just doesn't seem to be remembered, or something she is able to do. She has had therapy for this, to process the abuse and the habits that she developed as a result of the abuse. This is the one thing that just does not seem to change. I am terribly afraid she is this way because I am. Most of the time I pretend I don't hurt because it gets old when people ask how you are and you always want to say "terrible, I feel like doo doo.". So I say I am fine or okay or whatever. I do NOT cry in front of people. I have always been like this - even as a little kid. I would go hide to cry. I can cry around husband, it was one of the things that let me know that he was the one for me. I also have cried in front of 2 friends. Since high school I have almost never cried in front of my mom. I just cannot. Period. If I get choked up about something I hold it back as much as I can until I can leave. I have had to work hard on this with my own doctors and it isn't easy. Any ideas/suggestions would be helpful. Thanks.