"Deni D, "But I also could not figure out the difference between his mental illness and typical behavior you see these days when he was a teen. I did not know he was drinking and smoking synthetic pot when he was 16 causing his medications to not work properly for him. And I think even if I did know there would have been no way for me to stop it. If you ever go there again blaming yourself try to remember it most likely would have not mattered a whit once he was out of your sight Deni D, thanks for your response. Wow. You did a LOT to try to intervene for your son. Thanks for the reminder about it not mattering once he was out of our sight. That is true. Even if we had been aware there was a genetic background of Bipolar and had gotten him help, he eventually would have left home, as he did, and we couldn't have controlled what he did or didn't do. I continue to pray he will see that he is ill, hopefully sooner than later. Copa, thanks for the help with the quote. It's funny--I did all the steps, but then proceeded to delete the programming language! And that's when I noticed your comment about not doing that! Okay, I will keep practicing.