Copabanana, you write so beautifully. That was so poignant and relatable. You should write a book.
How do you deal with guilt? Not old 'woulda, shoulda, coulda' guilt, but guilt over being happy in the now. I wake up and feel guilty about sleeping in my own bed while he's probably outside somewhere. Going to the grocery store, he's probably hungry. I know deep down that there's nothing I can do about those things. I'm going to try changing the thought pattern as you suggest. I can't control him but I can control my thoughts.
I'm with you, I don't tolerate negative or toxic friendships anymore. There's enough of that without adding to it on purpose.
Iwantpeace, I'm with you - printing this out - it is a wonderful tool as you say. Balancing act...exactly.
