Thank you.
I knew he was like this long ago, but I put up with it. I wish I hadn't.
Same with my mom. She was so abusive and I wanted her love so badly I practically kissed her feet until I realized, she was never going to like or accept me and that if I didn't back off it would lead to nothing but pain. Nobody broke my heart the way she did, but that's over too and I realize how my family works and am no longer sucked into it.
And she made me a much better parent. Sadly, I just did everything she did not, like practice unconditional love, never namecall, apologize to mine whenever I was wrong, and never lie to them or abuse them. She made me the mother she could not be, and for that I thank her. At least my grown kids and I do well.
You can always learn something from anything...there is always a lesson.
