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<blockquote data-quote="Jena" data-source="post: 391559" data-attributes="member: 4514"><p>I WANT HELP AM GOOD WITH HELP!! BRING IT ON!!! PLEASE PLEASE UNCLE, UNCLE!!</p><p> </p><p>All kidding aside i read what you wrote and began crying at my easy child. than took the crying party into my favorite room yes the BATHROOM!! husband returned from some kid drop off and said wtf happened now?? hmm nothing just this really cool woman who loves pink donkeys and apparently has grey boots nailed me like no one else. How'd she do that he said? Too long to explain </p><p> </p><p>so, yup your right, as far as jobs go i've always excelled in just about any job i've ever taken. had so many in diff field because i LOVE so many things........ so many. and yea you know me i've shared my **** last marriage yup your right and now this one im like hmm i've smelled this before!! LOL. time to FIX IT! FIX difficult child, FIX easy child, FIX DOGS. Nope i'm going to fix me. i didn't know i was broken though that's the sad part of it.</p><p> </p><p>i want help STAR OH WISE ONE soo bad. i want my mom to come out for a day, she wont' to just be with-difficult child so i can go run errands go food shopping, i'd LOVE a friend here that I could say hey wanna have coffee yet guess what don't have any....... why i dont' know i used to have a ton of friends in queens where i used to live. his ex killed it for me here.</p><p> </p><p>anyway, yea i'm heading to therapy for me. maybe the dad thing too bugged me more than i'd like to admit also. i would absolutely love to be able to sit with-someone and pay them to listen to me vent away my **** also would give everyone here a reprieve for a bit.</p><p> </p><p>i have all these ppl supposedly TO HELP the refeeding therapist i found, the regular therapist for her i found, than the hospital ppl for medical part of it, than the psychiatric for medications. yet all of them seem i don't know not always that helpful at times. i expect alot from them and well feel frustrated when i or difficult child doesnt' get all that i feel should come from them. </p><p> </p><p>i need to go to therapy to vent, get my junk out, have someone help me find me again i feel sooo lost in all this the past years from one trauma to another. i need to find out where my boundaries lie again, for me personally with-it all kids, etc.</p><p> </p><p>i too love horses, it's my sanity. getting on that horse, running fast it just makes me feel alive again and like me. its probably the only time i am one with me. i want to buy one and attach it to the backyard railing yet husband told me that wouldn't work lol. i gotta find a way to make myself feel that way everyday again. loosing the ability to work has really killed me. i think i lost sense of self on that area too. i found it hard to juggle all yet that feeling of accomplishment, being able to complete a project, fix a kid a problem a family gave me that sense of worth i lack in my own home. sad yet true.</p><p> </p><p>ok enough ramblings. star your the best, you really got me there crying alot. i dont' feel insulted or even crazy i just feel very touched that you would take the time to write all of that to me. it's not often ppl touch me, animals do ALL the time, yet ppl not so much anymore. YOU made a difference.</p><p> </p><p>i'm sorry for all you went thru too with dude, with it all. yet you have lived a life, struggled, survived, grown, and smiled and laughed alot i'm sure. your a good good person. love you too! thanks so much. and by the way i'm also scheduling my mri for when i WANT TO not waiting till it works in difficult child's schedule between tutors and doctor's. i want to feel happy in this home again and in me regardless of the craziness and get it under control.</p><p> </p><p>Also crazy thing is i did the therapy thing 2x in my life BIG (after exh and I; I cleaned that all up), i took the time, took the rose colored glasses off a few years ago again (dad junk) and really faced some hairy demons, came out the other side and was really really proud of myself for doing it. I guess I missed a few sessions?? <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite1" alt=":)" title="Smile :)" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":)" /></p><p> </p><p>(((Hugs)))</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Jena, post: 391559, member: 4514"] I WANT HELP AM GOOD WITH HELP!! BRING IT ON!!! PLEASE PLEASE UNCLE, UNCLE!! All kidding aside i read what you wrote and began crying at my easy child. than took the crying party into my favorite room yes the BATHROOM!! husband returned from some kid drop off and said wtf happened now?? hmm nothing just this really cool woman who loves pink donkeys and apparently has grey boots nailed me like no one else. How'd she do that he said? Too long to explain so, yup your right, as far as jobs go i've always excelled in just about any job i've ever taken. had so many in diff field because i LOVE so many things........ so many. and yea you know me i've shared my **** last marriage yup your right and now this one im like hmm i've smelled this before!! LOL. time to FIX IT! FIX difficult child, FIX easy child, FIX DOGS. Nope i'm going to fix me. i didn't know i was broken though that's the sad part of it. i want help STAR OH WISE ONE soo bad. i want my mom to come out for a day, she wont' to just be with-difficult child so i can go run errands go food shopping, i'd LOVE a friend here that I could say hey wanna have coffee yet guess what don't have any....... why i dont' know i used to have a ton of friends in queens where i used to live. his ex killed it for me here. anyway, yea i'm heading to therapy for me. maybe the dad thing too bugged me more than i'd like to admit also. i would absolutely love to be able to sit with-someone and pay them to listen to me vent away my **** also would give everyone here a reprieve for a bit. i have all these ppl supposedly TO HELP the refeeding therapist i found, the regular therapist for her i found, than the hospital ppl for medical part of it, than the psychiatric for medications. yet all of them seem i don't know not always that helpful at times. i expect alot from them and well feel frustrated when i or difficult child doesnt' get all that i feel should come from them. i need to go to therapy to vent, get my junk out, have someone help me find me again i feel sooo lost in all this the past years from one trauma to another. i need to find out where my boundaries lie again, for me personally with-it all kids, etc. i too love horses, it's my sanity. getting on that horse, running fast it just makes me feel alive again and like me. its probably the only time i am one with me. i want to buy one and attach it to the backyard railing yet husband told me that wouldn't work lol. i gotta find a way to make myself feel that way everyday again. loosing the ability to work has really killed me. i think i lost sense of self on that area too. i found it hard to juggle all yet that feeling of accomplishment, being able to complete a project, fix a kid a problem a family gave me that sense of worth i lack in my own home. sad yet true. ok enough ramblings. star your the best, you really got me there crying alot. i dont' feel insulted or even crazy i just feel very touched that you would take the time to write all of that to me. it's not often ppl touch me, animals do ALL the time, yet ppl not so much anymore. YOU made a difference. i'm sorry for all you went thru too with dude, with it all. yet you have lived a life, struggled, survived, grown, and smiled and laughed alot i'm sure. your a good good person. love you too! thanks so much. and by the way i'm also scheduling my mri for when i WANT TO not waiting till it works in difficult child's schedule between tutors and doctor's. i want to feel happy in this home again and in me regardless of the craziness and get it under control. Also crazy thing is i did the therapy thing 2x in my life BIG (after exh and I; I cleaned that all up), i took the time, took the rose colored glasses off a few years ago again (dad junk) and really faced some hairy demons, came out the other side and was really really proud of myself for doing it. I guess I missed a few sessions?? :) (((Hugs))) [/QUOTE]
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