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<blockquote data-quote="Steely" data-source="post: 186484" data-attributes="member: 3301"><p>Thanks guys.........</p><p></p><p>It is such a culmination of things for me.</p><p>The support I get here, in counseling, and my own tenacity to find peace. But the most pivotal piece of this for me was completely removing myself from my parents. The day I did this.........amazing things started happening in my life. It is really powerful. I guess removing myself from their dysfunction, and not letting it cloud H.'s memory is the turning point. I have control over how I want to grieve & remember my baby sister now - and it is in no way contingent on any action that a person takes. It is all in my lap to do with as a I wish.</p><p></p><p>The same night I sent the email to my parents absolving myself from all of this, another pivotal thing happened. A girl at work sent me a poem out of the blue, within the same hour that I had sent the email to my parents. She did not know about anything or really even me except H had died. The poem was about her late husband who was a victim of a triple homicide that has never been solved. She told me she was thinking about me, and hoped this poem would help. Blew me away.</p><p></p><p>It was truly the most divine thing that has happened in years.........I was blown away by the timing, the thought, the confirmation that I was doing the right thing. The last 10 years I have doubted God and religion in every way possible. For the first time in decades, I think I may be rekindling my relationship with God, as I know him. Unbelievable.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Steely, post: 186484, member: 3301"] Thanks guys......... It is such a culmination of things for me. The support I get here, in counseling, and my own tenacity to find peace. But the most pivotal piece of this for me was completely removing myself from my parents. The day I did this.........amazing things started happening in my life. It is really powerful. I guess removing myself from their dysfunction, and not letting it cloud H.'s memory is the turning point. I have control over how I want to grieve & remember my baby sister now - and it is in no way contingent on any action that a person takes. It is all in my lap to do with as a I wish. The same night I sent the email to my parents absolving myself from all of this, another pivotal thing happened. A girl at work sent me a poem out of the blue, within the same hour that I had sent the email to my parents. She did not know about anything or really even me except H had died. The poem was about her late husband who was a victim of a triple homicide that has never been solved. She told me she was thinking about me, and hoped this poem would help. Blew me away. It was truly the most divine thing that has happened in years.........I was blown away by the timing, the thought, the confirmation that I was doing the right thing. The last 10 years I have doubted God and religion in every way possible. For the first time in decades, I think I may be rekindling my relationship with God, as I know him. Unbelievable. [/QUOTE]
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