I have found serenity with H.

Discussion in 'The Watercooler' started by Steely, Aug 19, 2008.

  1. Steely

    Steely Active Member

    And you guys are so much part of it.
    Thank you.
    Evey smidge of advice you have ever given me has helped me to finally find my balance with the universe.

    I have walked away from my parents, (literally told them I do not want to talk to them for awhile), and H.'s case (maybe someday I will re-open the case), and her estate.
    I have just absolved myself, and now I am going to grieve my beloved sister in MY way. No things, no tangible entities, no parental constraints. She was MY sister........and I will remember her, and connect with her in MY way.

    I cannot explain how much better I feel. I, once again, feel her spirit, her energy, her love - and it is unencumbered by anger, tangents, or complications. I have centered myself, and found my peace.

    I have found a support group, and I will be attending soon.
    I have lunch/dinner dates with friends set up, (a novelty for me).
    I am having fun at work, (again, not the norm).
    difficult child and I just had the best conversation I have had with him in months about none other than opera.
    And I am going up to Oregon over the new years to celebrate H's life with my cousin.

    I, for the first time in a long time, feel like I am on the right path. I feel empowered.
    Thank God,
    And thank all of you.
  2. busywend

    busywend Well-Known Member Staff Member

    I am so happy for you Steely!

    I bet H is, too!
  3. trinityroyal

    trinityroyal Well-Known Member

    Steely, I can hear the peace in your voice.
    This is wonderful.

  4. KTMom91

    KTMom91 Well-Known Member

    I am so glad you've found some peace! Sending hugs.
  5. everywoman

    everywoman Active Member

    It's so good to see that you are feeling more at peace. I know it's been a rough road.
    I'm glad you are finding the serenity that you needed.
  6. klmno

    klmno Active Member

  7. hearts and roses

    hearts and roses Mind Reader

    Aw, Steely, I am soooooo happy for you - hugs.
  8. nvts

    nvts Active Member

    I'm so happy for you! You certainly deserve it (and so does H's memory!). Giggle, laugh and have fun! Go to lunch and DON'T FORGET TO ORDER DESSERT! The Opera?!!! Who knew!

    Wonderful, wonderful news!

    The best to you!

  9. witzend

    witzend Well-Known Member

    I'm glad that you are seeing a better life for yourself, and that you have found a support group. It's really freeing to walk away from the turmoil, isn't it?

  10. Hound dog

    Hound dog Nana's are Beautiful

    Steely hearing the peace in your words is wonderful. I am so happy you have reached this place. I know it was a very tough road for you to travel.

    And you are so very right. :D

  11. susiestar

    susiestar Roll With It


    I am so happy that you have found your balance and that once again you feel connected with your sister.

    You have had a really tough time, I am glad you are in a better place.

    Love you!
  12. mstang67chic

    mstang67chic Going Green

    That is sooo good to hear! You sound sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better and I'm happy for you!

  13. amazeofgrace

    amazeofgrace New Member

  14. Big Bad Kitty

    Big Bad Kitty lolcat

    I can "hear" the peace in your "voice". I could not be happier.
  15. totoro

    totoro Mom? What's a GFG?

    You deserve to live again, with H in your heart.
    I am so HAPPY!
  16. mrscatinthehat

    mrscatinthehat Seussical

    So glad for you.

  17. gcvmom

    gcvmom Here we go again!

    What a wonderful place to finally reach! I'm very happy for you and wish you continued peace.
  18. donna723

    donna723 Well-Known Member

    Steely, I am so happy for you. That's wonderful news. You sound like your whole attitude has changed and that you have made your peace with it. You've found the serenity that comes with acceptance of that which you cannot change.
  19. Shari

    Shari IsItFridayYet?

    Wonderful news, Steely.

    There will be bumps along the way - days that you doubt, again - but have faith you will get thru them.

    So very happy for you.
  20. meowbunny

    meowbunny New Member

    I'm so very pleased for you. Do celebrate her life. It sounds like she has left you so many gifts and memories. Use them to get through the bad days. Many hugs!