O.k. I've been having lots of mini panic attacks. I don't have them bad (intense), but they can go on for days/weeks. I've been trying to figure out what triggers them and have isolated a trigger - FOOD! When ever there is lots of food around I have a panic attack (actually panic attacks.) I grew up never really getting enough; we didn't starve but my mom hated to cook. If we were hungery we had to fix it our self. Like a 5 year old really knows how to cook a balanced meal; that would've been great for teenagers, though. Anyway ex used to not let me eat or sleep. I had to go over to the neighbors to eat behind his back because he controled how much food came into the house. I couldn't eat more than he did (and I was pregnant.) Now, if there is food and I'm not eating it I get panicky. So, I'm trying to convince my emotions that its o.k. I've got enough food. I can eat when ever I want and as much as I want. Soooooo, I'm eating until I don't want to eat any more. I really hope this works to stop the panic attacks. I am hoping to stop the obsession my emotions have with food, so I can have enough in the house with going beserk and eating it all trying to get enough before it isn't there anymore. Has anyone had any experiance with food deprivation issues? How was it treated? I should go to a therapist, but just don't have the time between difficult child 1 and difficult child 2 appoinments and not having a car. I really hope this works.