hi
i'm done today. two years of unanswered questions, the wrong medication's rough nights scarey mornings, balancing work and phone calls from school and pyschologists, etc. my little one begging to stay home crying
i got out of shower this morning, she was still sleeping. she came in our room last night in the middle of night so she was still in bedi got out of shower and just lost it and had no control i've been crying on and off for 3 hours. he found me in the extra bedroom hysterical crying shaking cold he just looked at me said nothing grabbed me and held me. yup i know he lies he argues with me but he was there and i was too weak to say no because i needed a hug so badly. i sat there crying for a half an hour. he helped me get her ready for school, he's afraid i'm loosing it. i got her to school while she cried and begged for me to bring her home, i asked for a pyschologist to help but no one was available so off she went on her own.
i need drugs i need xanax thought i had a btld in drawer i do not. i'm trying to find dr. he took morning off to drive me. i can't stop crying i'm so tired so done so sick of the dr.s not being able to help so sick of being told i should keep pushing her into door at school and watching her cringe. shes failing she's afraid it's disgusting.
it's been leading her for two years now my family stinks and are of no support to me the friend i thought would wnat to help doesn't most of my supposed friends have disappeared and he is the only one who isnt afraid of what she has and what this is.
ok going back to try adn get an appointment. at dr.s for myself.
jen
i'm done today. two years of unanswered questions, the wrong medication's rough nights scarey mornings, balancing work and phone calls from school and pyschologists, etc. my little one begging to stay home crying
i got out of shower this morning, she was still sleeping. she came in our room last night in the middle of night so she was still in bedi got out of shower and just lost it and had no control i've been crying on and off for 3 hours. he found me in the extra bedroom hysterical crying shaking cold he just looked at me said nothing grabbed me and held me. yup i know he lies he argues with me but he was there and i was too weak to say no because i needed a hug so badly. i sat there crying for a half an hour. he helped me get her ready for school, he's afraid i'm loosing it. i got her to school while she cried and begged for me to bring her home, i asked for a pyschologist to help but no one was available so off she went on her own.
i need drugs i need xanax thought i had a btld in drawer i do not. i'm trying to find dr. he took morning off to drive me. i can't stop crying i'm so tired so done so sick of the dr.s not being able to help so sick of being told i should keep pushing her into door at school and watching her cringe. shes failing she's afraid it's disgusting.
it's been leading her for two years now my family stinks and are of no support to me the friend i thought would wnat to help doesn't most of my supposed friends have disappeared and he is the only one who isnt afraid of what she has and what this is.
ok going back to try adn get an appointment. at dr.s for myself.
jen