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<blockquote data-quote="BusynMember" data-source="post: 664967" data-attributes="member: 1550"><p>I'm not so far ahead of you, Cedar. Don't sell yourself short. We're done doing that, right?</p><p></p><p>I had an interesting experience over the weekend and I'll try to make it as concise as I can. But it did let me know how well I'm doing.</p><p></p><p>I was trying to charge my cellphone in the car on the way home and, as usual, it was bouncing all over and we hit a bump and the "smart" phone (I don't think they're so smart) came down on my lap showing me a place I never look and didn't even know I had. Most of it was covered up by my main screen, but I saw two words "I'm still"</p><p></p><p>I saw my own phone number and was just about to delete it and forget it when I noticed her number under mine. You know who I mean. I shook my head and deleted it and then told my hubby.</p><p></p><p>What did she text me for after all this time?</p><p></p><p>I didn't care.</p><p></p><p>I honestly didn't care.</p><p></p><p>It's too late for her to ever tell me she's sorry and wants to try again.</p><p></p><p>She's too gone from my world for me to care if she was baiting me or sending me something just plain mean.</p><p></p><p>It's too late.</p><p></p><p>I have her number blocked so normally if she keeps trying to contact me, it will go to a place I could never figure out how to get to again and don't want to. </p><p></p><p>I am starting to feel extreme indifference and that's to me the real sign of healing. When you just don't let anything somebody else have the power to change your mood. But this just happened. Yes, I worked hard on it, but the indifference came with time and not reading. Yes, I cheated to see if she still posted there. I am no longer a member and I know she has at least been suspended and can no longer hate on me there. </p><p></p><p>The site itself has nothing for me there. Anyone dramatic is gone from my life.</p><p></p><p>So that's my little victory story. I didn't care. I'm not curious. I'll never know. It doesn't matter.</p><p></p><p>I got home from seeing Princess and BuddhaBaby maybe an hour ago and it's incredible how tired you get just being the passenger of a driven car...haha. It's very hot out today and after I walk the dogs, I think I'm going to veg out and relax.</p><p></p><p>Does anyone know about Scientology? We saw this great documentary (and scary one) at my daugher's place yesterday. Maybe I'll start a thread about it. I had no idea what they did to those who tried to leave their cult.</p><p></p><p>Haha..I guess in a very minor way that could symbolize our childhoods and attempts to leave it behind as adults?</p><p></p><p>At any rate, it was excellent and hubby is going to see if NetFlex or Amazon Prime have it so we can watch it without baby distracting grammy. The fact is, with this little cutie in my space, it is impossible to pay total attention to the screen...</p><p></p><p>Hope you all have a great day!!! Serenity to all.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="BusynMember, post: 664967, member: 1550"] I'm not so far ahead of you, Cedar. Don't sell yourself short. We're done doing that, right? I had an interesting experience over the weekend and I'll try to make it as concise as I can. But it did let me know how well I'm doing. I was trying to charge my cellphone in the car on the way home and, as usual, it was bouncing all over and we hit a bump and the "smart" phone (I don't think they're so smart) came down on my lap showing me a place I never look and didn't even know I had. Most of it was covered up by my main screen, but I saw two words "I'm still" I saw my own phone number and was just about to delete it and forget it when I noticed her number under mine. You know who I mean. I shook my head and deleted it and then told my hubby. What did she text me for after all this time? I didn't care. I honestly didn't care. It's too late for her to ever tell me she's sorry and wants to try again. She's too gone from my world for me to care if she was baiting me or sending me something just plain mean. It's too late. I have her number blocked so normally if she keeps trying to contact me, it will go to a place I could never figure out how to get to again and don't want to. I am starting to feel extreme indifference and that's to me the real sign of healing. When you just don't let anything somebody else have the power to change your mood. But this just happened. Yes, I worked hard on it, but the indifference came with time and not reading. Yes, I cheated to see if she still posted there. I am no longer a member and I know she has at least been suspended and can no longer hate on me there. The site itself has nothing for me there. Anyone dramatic is gone from my life. So that's my little victory story. I didn't care. I'm not curious. I'll never know. It doesn't matter. I got home from seeing Princess and BuddhaBaby maybe an hour ago and it's incredible how tired you get just being the passenger of a driven car...haha. It's very hot out today and after I walk the dogs, I think I'm going to veg out and relax. Does anyone know about Scientology? We saw this great documentary (and scary one) at my daugher's place yesterday. Maybe I'll start a thread about it. I had no idea what they did to those who tried to leave their cult. Haha..I guess in a very minor way that could symbolize our childhoods and attempts to leave it behind as adults? At any rate, it was excellent and hubby is going to see if NetFlex or Amazon Prime have it so we can watch it without baby distracting grammy. The fact is, with this little cutie in my space, it is impossible to pay total attention to the screen... Hope you all have a great day!!! Serenity to all. [/QUOTE]
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