Oddly enough I just got off the phone with Tornado. She was crying and couldn’t explain herself clearly, something about the place she was staying at and people being two faced. Then it was about her being the only one with consequences. She told me that when she was sober, (about consequences, being the only one- other people have done worse and get away with it…..) and I told her that she was blessed to have consequences, that is how she is getting so much help, a chance to live a better life.
I asked her when was the last time she used and she admitted it was early in the morning.
So of course it made sense that she wasn’t making sense.
I don’t normally hear from her in such a state. I told her that God loves her and that she still has a chance to make things right. What else can I say?
This has always been on my mind LMS, that the worst could happen. That reality is no longer a catalyst for enabling. I used to think if I did this or that, maybe…..? I can’t stop whatever consequences occur, I have no control over their choices. It was Tornado who said that she learned in her classes that the end result of continuous using is prison or death.
I know Tornado and Rain are not intentionally hurting their family. But the fact is, it does hurt. There has to be some responsibility there.
Thank you LMS. I am also praying for my fellow warrior moms and their waywards. May we all find peace within, no matter what is swirling around us.
