That uncomfortable feeling listening to things I do not want to, as well as being so far removed from this world my two choose to live in.
Yes, this is true. I do not need to be sucked into the tawdry details.
I know that is part of why she called me, to join her in the story, to get me sucked into that vortex. I don’t belong in the center of that world, or anywhere near the edge. It is tragic for us, but who are we to live unscathed by life’s misfortunes and misery? It is what it is and we have to pick ourselves up and move forward.
It is a gift. There was a time when I began this journey that I could not bear to look back at the beautiful moments we all shared when my girls were younger. It made me too sad and drove my delusions. I see it the same as you Copa, I was blessed to have that time with my children when they were younger. Blessed that they were born healthy and remained so. They were a gift from God, on loan to me until it was time for them to make their own stories.
It is a good thing.
But it is up to her to do the work.
I will rest and continue to pray for both of my daughters.
Thank you Copa. Your wisdom and gift of writing brings so much comfort.
Leaf
