I am so incredibly frustrated with my son. He's 23 and, as far as I know, uses marijuana on a regular basis. He lives by himself and survives on government assistance. To keep the assistance he had to attend a course this week. He didn't go. Today he was meant to enrol for a course that starts next week. He didn't go. His reason, he was too anxious. Yet he manages to get out a buy drugs without any problems. I believe he is suffering mental issues, possibly bipolar. But he refuses to seek professional help. All our conversations are over the internet because he keeps smashing his phones (that he needs to apply for jobs) He blames me for everything that goes wrong. We threw him out 3 years ago for drug use. He hates me for that too. He is now asking to move back in. I tell him that is not an option. Today it was my fault because I made him angry, that's why he didn't go. If he lived here he would have. Oh yeah and I'd be wearing a straight jacket by now. He won't go to his courses because he wants me to pay for a course he wants to do. I refused because I've already paid for four he never completed. I'm stopping his dreams apparently. He seems to be boycotting everything so he'll lose everything and I'll take him in. Which will never happen while he's smoking dope. I drove home tonight from my full time job which I have held for 18 years feeling sick and trapped in a nightmare that just gets worse. The more I try and reason the more he won't listen. I am banging my head against a brick wall. Every time we get into another "discussion" I get a pain in my neck, I grind my teeth in my sleep at night, that is when I get to sleep. I know I need counselling but the only counselling available is at 7 at night in another town. I'm exhausted as it is. Feeling a bit disheartened tonight. PS(I don't know how to add my background to my posts ie who I am etc).