Every time I think the loops of the past month are over, here comes yet another one. This weekend there was a murder in our town. A 17 year-old killed and robbed an eldery lady. Turns out the 17 year old used to be best friends with my difficult child 1 and easy child. They went to school together through the sixth grade. The kid was over at my house more times than I can could. But, in Jr high the kid went to a different school...got into drugs...did rehad... found out he had mental issues and was medicated. Then he decided that he preferred self-medication (just like difficult child 2).... Guess the robbery/murder was meth related. It totally breaks my heart! And scares the crud out of me because difficult child 2 could go on that same road. Last week, a very good friend from High School years died in an auto accident...meth related. sister in law still isn't talking to me because I won"t let her play rescuer/enabler with difficult child 2. I didn't put her on the visitation list and told her that she can't mail out daily cards to difficult child 2. It's been one thing after another. difficult child 2 being in rehab right now should ease my fear, but she only went there because we gave her no other choice. She let her psychiatrist know the day before she went in that she didn't want to go. She doesn't want to quit her drug use. She preferrs self-medicating. And it's all the psychiatrist's fault that this is happening. If the psychiatrist had kept her **** mouth shut about the suicide attempt none of this would be happening. Someday the I will get past the loop-de-loops and settle in the smooth ride of life....I hope! Thanks for listening.