I think the past two weeks I had a meeting. Today is the IEP. difficult child will be present this time. As will husband. I hope. difficult child was so excited after school yesterday. He joined the Robotics club. It will be 6 weeks, 5 - 9pm week days and 8 hours on Saturday and Sunday. They show their exhibit in February in Milwaukee. If they win they go to nationals in Atlanta. Each week when I have a meeting we end up in a huge fight. Last night I was going through his binder and saw assignments he never turned in. Plus blank ones. When I question him he blows up and screams at me. His gripe is he has all B's. MY gripe is he LIES to me. Finally after screaming back and forth husband stepped in and actually stood up for me. He told difficult child that although we are proud of his hard work and good grades, that does NOT give him the right to LIE. difficult child went to bed crying, husband disappeared, and I was shaking! difficult child went to school 45 minutes early today for help in Biotech. After it was all set I logged on to check my email. Biotech teacher said she will NOT help difficult child unless he has the chapter questions done. She attached it. It was one of the blank sheets in his binder. He blew up at me. Said THAT is why he is going in for help. If he knew how he wouldn't be going in. My response is that she is willing to come in early ONLY if he shows effort. She wants to see that he atleast TRIED. He refused. So I do not know how this morning went. I told him not to be angry if she doesn't help him because he refused to try to do it. (it is outrageously hard...I can't even READ the words...Honors) I then discussed with difficult child some things that are on his IEP. One that has been a success in prior years is the use of a "cool off" pass. When he was feeling upset or if a teacher saw he was getting upset he was to use the pass, re-group and return...BEFORE there was an outburst. He told me this morning that HE is not allowed to use it only the teachers can tell him to. Then they send him to a little room smaller than the bathroom. He said one time they left him in there for over an hour. That was not the intention of this. He was to use it also if he felt he was going to explode. And only 5 - 10 minutes to regroup. Seems to me that this is being used as a punishment rather than a preventative act. He also said he has to sit in the front of class while others get to move around. How do I address that? He only has two weeks left of the Learning STratagies class where he was suppose to get help for organization and note taking. She also helps him with his work. I am afraid what will happen in the quarters to come. I am also so afraid I will lose control again and blow up after this meeting. I am so afraid of a huge fight. Although I know that, I just don't seem to be able to keep myself together. And difficult child pushes my buttons and I lose it. Aggghhhh!