Hi Acacia, welcome, sorry for your need to be here. Hugs to you and your hurting mommy and grandma heart.
Gently, I would like to say if this is your photo, you may want to choose an avatar, this is an anonymous site, it is how we are able to post our most intimate feelings and stories. This is a public site, and accessed by others.
You are not obligated to provide these things. There are agencies out there who will help, Acacia. I was drawn into the grandchild trap. I love my grans, and my d cs use that against me. I have written of this on many posts. I am not able to write at length, I have to go to work. (Sorry!)
This is good that you are aware of what is happening. It is really a matter of patterning and response. We have to learn how to change our responses Acacia. This takes some work and rebuilding of self. Keep posting. We help one another. The advice and opinions given are just that, it is up to you what you do. This is your journey, but it sure helps to engage with folks on similar paths.
peace to you
(((HUGS)))
leafy
