Our Difficult Child has embarrassed us beyond belief. He caused a huge rift in my family that hasn't been repaired by stealing my sister's Vicodin and then my husband getting mad at my sister for having it where he could "find" it and said something in anger and I haven't talked to her in a year and we were at my brother's at the time and that is strained too because he said things. It was just ugly.
I want to fix it but seriously I don't have ANY energy to do anything but deal with my son and everything OUR household has been through. He also caused a strain in my husband's family which is a long story. I'm beyond exhausted emotionally. I also stopped seeing a therapist because I had to take my son and it was too much going to all these appointments weekly and trying to work my full time job and have a life.
He went to rehab (that or eviction from our home) and now is in sober living in Delray Beach and says he likes it better than home (Chicago) but does miss us. We all have some peace now. FINALLY. I forgot what NORMAL was even like because your NORMAL is so fu*ked up. Sorry but that's the only word that even remotely describes it.
No one that hasn't been through this can even imagine what it's like. That's why it's so important to have a place to "unload" with folks that have been there or are there.
Tough love is hard but I'm convinced it's the ONLY way. Lord knows we tried EVERYTHING else first!!!
