Thank you for your replies and I get what you're all saying and I don't disagree.
I do have control issues, it's always been a way I feel safe, if I'm controlling something or in this case someone. It truly is the scariest thing for me to let go of her & let her fly on her own. But I know that's the only thing that can happen in order for both of us to grow. I loved what Cedar said and thank you for sharing his/her posts with me.
I'm sad. I'm grieving. This may or may not help her. And I have to be ok with that. I know I need to focus on me & my other daughter. It's just hard when I feel so down and like I failed somehow raising her. I feel like my family is broken.
I just wanted to get out what I was feeling yesterday. And I'm having hope that as each day passes this will be easier for me to digest & accept.
Have a good day everyone. 
