I think what I struggle the most with right now with the kids is feeling I have done something to screw them up. Out of 3 kids only my middle child gives me no trouble at all. How is this possible? I have so any questions and no answers.
Can some explain what community based therapy means? I am very anxious about allowing strangers in my home because it looks like a war zone most days. All the walls need holes fixed and repainted. We ripped most of the carpet our last summer due to damage and spills it had endured in the last 6 years. We could not afford new carpet so 90% of the floors are just unfinished hardwood which is not nice to look at. Broken windows and several wall spots where difficult child 2 has written or drawn on them etc..
I guess Iam afraid of someone saying I am not good enough to care for him and taking him away. I love my son even on his very worst days I want him home with me. My children are my life and my reason for getting up each day.
difficult child 2 is at Nana's again today. He did come home after finishing his lessons but then He got fixated on playing a game with her and could not refocus on anything else. He called and asked Grampy to come back and get him. I think sometimes I feel like a failure because he has days when he prefers Nana.
Nothing makes any sense.
