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<blockquote data-quote="Star*" data-source="post: 193433" data-attributes="member: 4964"><p>Dearest Friends All, </p><p> </p><p>I thank you so much for every opinion, idea, thought, prayer, bit of advice, guidance, caring and love. I think some days rather when I can not seem to hold my own head up - you all take 1 finger and push to keep me focused and forward moving. </p><p> </p><p>When I was younger I was an eternal optimist. EVERYTHING would be okay with time and love. IF something was broken you didn't throw it away you fixed it. I keep thinking of our Nancy and her duct tape upbringing because in our home as well everything was fixed with the silver tape. If I didn't think I would be thrown clear out of court I would wrap Dude up in duct tape at his trial and tell everyone - I know he looks 18 but he's really 13. I know at some point in your life with your adult children you have to let them continually mess up and not step in. I have my doubts anymore whether it really is valid to commit crimes and then jump back and say "I had a horrible child hood." I don't know how my own life would be today if I had been traded for crack cocaine as a child and had my bio fathers drug dealer molest me. Maybe I would have gotten over the anger and triumphed, maybe I would be just like Dude and be layers and layers of mess ups, low self esteem and wouldn't have taken advantage of the help I was given. (Some days I hate Dave Thomas) </p><p> </p><p>I know too and believe that it has come to the point where in younger days I would have already had a battle plan, a notebook FULL of ideas, a plan A, plan B, plan C to present to the attorney. My only shock in her is her advice to TAKE THE 15 years now, admit your guilt if you want and I can get you 7.....strike 2 felony at 18. I feel I have come to that place in my life and become the women that used to irk me with their negativity and jadedness. I silently say "I'm sorry" to everyone I ever scoffed at. They really did know a thing or two about life. My plan now? Butt out, sit back...concentrate on sleeping, get a second job, sell some things that have become White elephants in my home. Get on with my life and just pass Dude and say "I love you, how are you coming on your case?" and let it go. </p><p> </p><p>I'm such a take charge person. Take charge or take over or disaster relief specialist and was really really good at it all.....Now? Not so much. And it makes me feel empty, sad, and bitter. </p><p> </p><p>I have advocated for mentally ill children for years. I have stepped up, stepped in, and stepped out on a limb. And now I think I'm stepping down, and I don't know how. </p><p> </p><p>So bear with me....it's a transition and I hear you all...and I'm listening. I just have to get off the 53 mile horse ride in my own way (if you know what I mean) </p><p> </p><p>THanks LOADS girls- </p><p>You are all so appreciated. </p><p>Star</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Star*, post: 193433, member: 4964"] Dearest Friends All, I thank you so much for every opinion, idea, thought, prayer, bit of advice, guidance, caring and love. I think some days rather when I can not seem to hold my own head up - you all take 1 finger and push to keep me focused and forward moving. When I was younger I was an eternal optimist. EVERYTHING would be okay with time and love. IF something was broken you didn't throw it away you fixed it. I keep thinking of our Nancy and her duct tape upbringing because in our home as well everything was fixed with the silver tape. If I didn't think I would be thrown clear out of court I would wrap Dude up in duct tape at his trial and tell everyone - I know he looks 18 but he's really 13. I know at some point in your life with your adult children you have to let them continually mess up and not step in. I have my doubts anymore whether it really is valid to commit crimes and then jump back and say "I had a horrible child hood." I don't know how my own life would be today if I had been traded for crack cocaine as a child and had my bio fathers drug dealer molest me. Maybe I would have gotten over the anger and triumphed, maybe I would be just like Dude and be layers and layers of mess ups, low self esteem and wouldn't have taken advantage of the help I was given. (Some days I hate Dave Thomas) I know too and believe that it has come to the point where in younger days I would have already had a battle plan, a notebook FULL of ideas, a plan A, plan B, plan C to present to the attorney. My only shock in her is her advice to TAKE THE 15 years now, admit your guilt if you want and I can get you 7.....strike 2 felony at 18. I feel I have come to that place in my life and become the women that used to irk me with their negativity and jadedness. I silently say "I'm sorry" to everyone I ever scoffed at. They really did know a thing or two about life. My plan now? Butt out, sit back...concentrate on sleeping, get a second job, sell some things that have become White elephants in my home. Get on with my life and just pass Dude and say "I love you, how are you coming on your case?" and let it go. I'm such a take charge person. Take charge or take over or disaster relief specialist and was really really good at it all.....Now? Not so much. And it makes me feel empty, sad, and bitter. I have advocated for mentally ill children for years. I have stepped up, stepped in, and stepped out on a limb. And now I think I'm stepping down, and I don't know how. So bear with me....it's a transition and I hear you all...and I'm listening. I just have to get off the 53 mile horse ride in my own way (if you know what I mean) THanks LOADS girls- You are all so appreciated. Star [/QUOTE]
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