As most of you know, my peaceful life was interrupted by my father's death. A ton of old memories that I had locked away flooded back to me and hurt me all over again.Dang it! I am truly calming down somewhat now and wish to get back to that happy, peaceful place I was in for a long time. I have much to look forward to and my FOO should not be on my mind. Even if I am on theirs. I am already exercising, meditating and listening to comforting videos. I am enjoying a new group of friends as well as young mentorees. My dear dear husband retires on April 27. My daughter is graduating April 21 and the group to cheer for her will be large and fun. There will be a hotel family party for all. But apparently the back of my mind still carries the old trash. I need new ideas to put a lid on that trash again.. I thought about adult coloring books, assembling a calm box full of comforting items, praying and meditating more and I walk five miles a day. It's not enough, since this trauma has re-entered my mind. The old stuff that I thought was long gone. So I ask for more suggestions to practice calmness. There must be methods you have that I have not yet tried. Or thought of. No idea is too small or insignificant. It doesn't help that winter is lasting so long in Wisconsin lol. It is going to snow again this weekend. It snowed last weekend!! So all you kind folks, please help if you have any ideas. Helpful books, awesome meditations, calm activities, anything is welcome. ,Thanx,!