Valentines day my daughter asked me if I wanted to join her to go shopping. We both love cheese so we are always on the lookout for decent cheese. She picks me up, her eyes are clear, she is relaxed looking. I get in her car, she tells me I look nice. She turns her phone off. We shop, laugh and act like friends. It is hard to realize she recently ripped me off a large amount of money and has lied to me constantly for a damn long time. I try to replenish my heart with this little time of kindness.. I try to live in the here and now....but my mind and now heart understands that she is still a snake.'You can't make a bad deal with a good person' Also you can't make a good deal with a bad person. She takes me back home comes inside and we share the wonderful cheese. She hugs me good bye and tells me how much she loves me. I have neighbors watching the driveway to her house and so far 1/2 ass boyfriend has not been over. That does not mean she quit seeing him, it just means he has not come over to our rent home, I have seen him around at her spa weeks ago. When my daughter is not manic we do many things together. We attend classes, lectures, work shops. My mother and grandmother did many things together, I see mothers and daughters all over the place doing fun things together. It is very hard when my daughter goes off the rails and we are in the middle of a class or workshop. We try things we have never done before and even have traveled out of the country to attend classes. The only thing that sets my daughter's mania to the moon is when she is in a love relationship. I can remember my hormones all wacky when I was in love. Being in love does mess with hormones and other chemical things happen. I know I acted odd when newly in love but never mean or trying to harm or rip off people. When my daughter falls in love a demon takes complete control over her. She can not have a relationship with a man and with her family at the same time. She gets mad if the guy talks to me and tries to keep the men and us apart, I think so we can't compare the lies. My bipolar sister in law was the same way, dating the same type of awful men that used and abused her. And I am positive she was no picnic either. My daughter maybe out of the relationship since she is trying to plan things with me.. Life is short, fragile and unpredictable..No way would I be out doing things with anyone else that has treated me so awful. Why am I still doing things with her? She will be ok until the next man she meets and then back to square 1. She has even told me that she does not think she should date because her hormones go all wacky. I would love for her to find a decent partner. It is my deepest prayer. She has had several good men, even men that want to work it out knowing she has a disorder. I think good men bore her and awful men keep her manic the entire time..I do not see how she can break this horrible pattern without therapy or medication, but she has to be the one that wants it..She refuses medication.