I think that your thought process is good. I'm no expert, but aside from knowing that once you start you won't stop, checking his searches doesn't make you feel better. So it sounds like what you are doing is a good thing to me.
The thing with recovery is that, I think, most addicts deal with anxiety in recovery. These are people who are used to dealing with the world only on their own terms, numbed out. I would think that it would be an incredibly scary thing to actually feel things, especially uncomfortable things, when you are so used to being tranquilized.
I guess the question is whether, or not, this is a part of recovery that he has to work through, or whether it is something underlying.
I'm glad you are staying strong. Is there anything that you can do to distract yourself from these thoughts and temptations?
