Rebelson, you and I sound a lot alike. I do the same thing with checking phone records multiple times/day, I try to stop because I know I'm only driving myself crazy but I still continue. I had never thought I was Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) though but maybe I am. I think we just have that gut instinct as mothers when something isn't right and feel we can prevent or fix it by checking. You and I both know we are only hurting ourselves.
You have received some great advice on here. I agree with all of it but I understand why you can't stop checking up on your son. I just try to praise myself that I'm not as bad as I used to be.
I'm sorry for your son relapsing , it's a wonderful thing that he jumped right back into treatment, very good sign. You should be very happy about this and relax. Your son is safe.
