<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Quote:</div><div class="ubbcode-body">...on the other hand even though we practice detachment and repeat the Serenity Prayer, the sense of loss prevades our daily life.</div></div>
This, too, I understand. Not in the way you've experienced it, but in the last few days I've finally accepted that the son I knew is gone, never to return. And I grieve for that loss. In a way, maybe I always knew this to be true, and suffered all the more for failing to acknowledge it. For me, too, it's an all day, every day weight on my soul that only gets worse as the reality of the situation becomes clearer.
<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Quote:</div><div class="ubbcode-body">"Why does it have to be this way?" There is no answer to that question within the mortal experience. We focus on the Serenity Prayer.........and try to believe that God has a plan.</div></div>
I sure hope so. You'd think that after being sober for over 15 years, and being in several different 12-step programs that I'd understand this. But like my son, I guess at the time I was dealing with my issues, as I thought they affected me - not other people. Maybe you never really know what the first three steps really mean until you have to re-learn them as the observer, not the abuser.
Not as far along the path as I thought I was. But at least now I have a better understanding of how far I have to go.
Mikey
