Aloha Leaf,
I’ve had you in mind so often. Loving you with all pule and mana’o. One lanai place I was at last week had a Pue’o garden sculpture standing / symbolizing protection over the area, and it reminded me of you and your avatar.
I stand with you Sistah and the struggles you are having. How we all relate to each other! We all know so well how hard this is, but we get through it just for today , one day at a time, taking care of ourselves.
I come to this site often for support, but have not posted in such a long time. Mainly because right now, my son is a few years in HCF, so I do not have the daily despair in my face / knocking me down each day. It is a relief for me and I am thankful for it. I do speak with son periodically in 5 minute calls. But until now, he has never expressed remorse for crimes and addiction or a desire for change, so I’m still so fearful thinking ahead to when he gets out, and how I will really not be able to go through these things again. Hubs is already in 80s. While I try to stay thankful, the thought of him getting out and “rinse / repeat” fills me with a sinking dread. But at the same time, I keep hope alive. In my daily walks in different areas, I can see views of the quarry in the pali behind HCF and even rainbows in the valley, and I lift my heart with some vibes of gratitude and try to understand and find meaning.
I give thanks for your ohana folks that support you and bring joy. I'm with you in spirit, Tita. Aloha kakou. Stay pono.
Take care. Bless. Kalahou
