I know when I do my searches thru my kids things that I stand the chance of finding something devistating. Understanding that, if I feel the need I plunge ahead. Tonight though, I get on MY computer for the first time in a very long time. N has left it logged into yahoo under her name. Her mail is up. Ok. So I start looking thru her in box, sent mail, files, ect. (My kids know they're subject to such searches without notice at any opportunity) This is not the first time I've gone thru N's email. But this time I'm sort of flipping thru one's she's sent to b/f. (mostly gagging at the teen luv mushy stuff) Then I stumble across one that makes my blood run cold. N is obviously fighting with b/f. In it she refers to liking some other boy named C, which ticked off b/f. But she was explaining that while she thought C was cute she had no real interest in him. But when she tried to explain this to C he threw her down on the bed, put a knife to her throat, ripped off her pants, and threatened to kill b/f if she didn't cooperate. She was explaining she cooperated to protect b/f. This is the first I've heard of this. Of course. Although I've suspected something of this nature before. Now, b/f has made statements to N that the baby isn't his since she was pregnant. He still does when mad. I believe this child is his. She may look like N, but she also looks like him. In later emails it sounds as if b/f may potentially be holding this over N's head. This C dude gets referred to ALOT without details in later emails she saved. Now what I'm going to do with this information I'm not quite sure. N doesn't know that I'm a rape survivor. easy child knows, husband knows period. I think it's time for N to discover the skeleton in her mother's closet. Maybe it will help to to deal with her own. Guys, I can truely use some help with this one.