Hi all. Things have been seemingly going okay with Difficult Child for a few weeks but I always had the feeling that it was only matter of time before it went bad again. Which it did [emoji53]. Difficult Child has been staying with friends temporarily while looking for something more permanent. Last week she had a good lead on a house with 3 other girls that more than a few pimple were interested in. She didn't get it and is very depressed. I saw on her website today that she wants to kill herself. I'd call 911 but I don't even know where she is as she would not tell me. Panicked and helpless is how I'm feeling right now. She won't answer her phone or respond to texts but I called a friend of hers who said she is safe and okay for the moment. . She has called more lately and we've talked about some things and I thought everything was looking up but I guess not. She is bipolar and said as of Saturday that she is taking her medications but who knows. This is just awful wondering if she is okay . I am terribly sick with the flu which is not helping. I am angry with Difficult Child. I know this is the mental illness but why can she not just call and say she is okay??. Why do we have to wonder guess and pray about it?. It's cruel in a way.