Hi, I have missed everyone here. Haven't been in a good mood in about lets say since November, when my difficult child returned from her Aunts house in California. Her aunt said she didnt have the patience. She came back November 5th. Very rough time with daughter, she ended up going to a party and was sexually assaulted, I dont know why but the R word is too hard for me to associate with my baby girl. She's confused and now claims she is bi-sexual. She has been hospitalized three times since she's been home, goes to a special partial in-patient program for kids who are having issues. Now she has a girlfriend and is making tie dye shirts obsessively. This last hospitalization, they really worked wonders, the mood stabilizer they gave her has changed her. My eldest daughter came home from a caribbean vacation and gave me some kind of viral infection, my youngest took care of me, it was a wicked week. I've decided that since my family disowned me because of raciscm, that I cannot have anything to do with that. I will always love and accept my kids for who they are. It's become a little easier. difficult child smokes at soon to be 16, not doing any more weed or drinking. So yeah, im enjoying every day that I get with her healthy. ELdest has one more semester to go in college and has decided she wants to enlist in the Air-force. She said she will not find a job that will support the way she wants to live. Meaning she wants to travel. My father passed away from Parkinson's December 16th. I hadn't seen him for awhile, but we had talked. Everyday, I feel I should still be able to call him. It's going to be six months soon, and still doesnt seem real that he can't answer that darn phone. I am having gastric bypass surgery (lap band) in July sometime. Sick of being fat. lol, just havent been able to conquer that. WOw, i read all that negative stuff and started to think of something great that has also happened since I was on the board more regularly and I went blank. One good think is my Dad's youngest brother John, is in my life now, he and his wife are both wonderful people. He's not my dad, but he's the greatest Uncle.
