It's been planned for a couple of weeks now - if kt had been home we'd have had respite. As she is not home, husband & I have decided to use Residential Treatment Center (RTC) as respite. No kt visit; no wm visit. Just a weekend to reconnect after a very hectic couple of months. I had to remind staff & SW at Residential Treatment Center (RTC) again this morning of the plans for this coming weekend. You've never heard such a load of crap thrown my way by SW & Residential Treatment Center (RTC) therapist. In the meantime, I have a therapist of my own & the attachment therapist today telling me to go ahead with our plans. I feel like I'm in the middle of a therapeutic argument between Residential Treatment Center (RTC) staff & outside staff that we are utilizing for outpatient treatment. So even though it's been recommended by tdocs that husband & I continue with the planned respite - I feel like the worst mother in the world. What exactly am I doing wrong? I'm a good mother - I know when to take time if I have it available. Why don't I believe it anymore?