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Mom? What's a difficult child?
So I sunk... into a black hole. About 2 weeks ago. Probably longer, hmm. Brain crushing, not moving, too down to even think about death.
Made it to my doctor, she put me on Prozac, oops. I had started feeling a bit better prior to starting it, but she was worried. So I was feeling a little better, but then I was a zombie, head just felt foggy, made me so much worse. I was in a daze. I would go through the motions and then collapse in my bed. I hadn't been on the computer since the end of June.
I think what triggered it was two days of no sleep, insurance would not approve my Ambien and it just sent me out of control. I got the Ambien the second night so I only missed it one night... but it just triggered it. Then husband were arguing about something stupid, it just spiraled.
I have been doing pretty good for about a week, but husband family came in last Saturday!!! SO 9 of us at my house. Yes me doing all of the cooking. They just left. Now i have people coming to look at our house, which is not officially on the market in the morning!!!
So I am cleaning.
We move in 2 weeks... K is doing so bad, she has some new venom in her rages and just yesterday said she wants to "Fly and just die" Lots of death talk. I am so sad for her.
We are weaning off of the Depakote. upping the Seroquel for now. psychiatrist has been great, e-mailing back and forth. We go in to see her right when we get to Tucson.
I am so nervous about school starting Aug. 7th. The heat, the instability... she is worse than ever. I just don't know what to do.
Any way I feel so much better and am still positive about things, as positive as I can.
There is more but I won't blah it all out right now!
I miss you guy's...
Made it to my doctor, she put me on Prozac, oops. I had started feeling a bit better prior to starting it, but she was worried. So I was feeling a little better, but then I was a zombie, head just felt foggy, made me so much worse. I was in a daze. I would go through the motions and then collapse in my bed. I hadn't been on the computer since the end of June.
I think what triggered it was two days of no sleep, insurance would not approve my Ambien and it just sent me out of control. I got the Ambien the second night so I only missed it one night... but it just triggered it. Then husband were arguing about something stupid, it just spiraled.
I have been doing pretty good for about a week, but husband family came in last Saturday!!! SO 9 of us at my house. Yes me doing all of the cooking. They just left. Now i have people coming to look at our house, which is not officially on the market in the morning!!!
So I am cleaning.
We move in 2 weeks... K is doing so bad, she has some new venom in her rages and just yesterday said she wants to "Fly and just die" Lots of death talk. I am so sad for her.
We are weaning off of the Depakote. upping the Seroquel for now. psychiatrist has been great, e-mailing back and forth. We go in to see her right when we get to Tucson.
I am so nervous about school starting Aug. 7th. The heat, the instability... she is worse than ever. I just don't know what to do.
Any way I feel so much better and am still positive about things, as positive as I can.
There is more but I won't blah it all out right now!
I miss you guy's...