I hear you too, Tanya. Acacia summed up my feelings too. I am sure our difficult ones have moments when they want a mom in their lives, but (for my son at least) it is just that, a fleeting moment, and not rooted in any desire for a mutually giving relationship. I hope one day that changes, but for now it is far less painful to love him from afar than watch him deliberately hurt himself and the people who love him.
