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<blockquote data-quote="AmericanGirl" data-source="post: 597143" data-attributes="member: 15812"><p>Sig and Flower,</p><p></p><p>Thank you for responding. I feel better just knowing you felt similar although I'd never wish it on you.</p><p></p><p>i agree that difficult child's verbal/emotional abuse has taken its toll.</p><p></p><p>Flower, difficult child's bio dad had me in the same place. After I divorced him, it felt foreign to sit in my own living room because I had been hiding in my bedroom or bath for many years.</p><p></p><p>my al-anon sponsor has moved two hours away but was in town today. I had lunch w him and my 'local' sponsor. The three of us carry one another. Then I spent the afternoon w my local sponsor.</p><p></p><p>i shared w them I was having suicidal thoughts but won't do anything until I insure difficult child cannot inherit anything to use to destroy himself. It scares me to be inside my head right now.</p><p></p><p>i see a new therapist tomorrow afternoon. I have a list of people to call tonight and my home group meets tomorrow.</p><p></p><p>i know my son is only using bio dad, grandmother, etc because I refuse to allow him to use me anymore. My rational mind tells me that since both of them are users too, that this will crash and burn before along and difficult child will come back to me even more broken.</p><p></p><p>i shared a lot of difficult child's history with both sponsors today. We all believe difficult child would likely be diagnosed as sociopathic. It's things like holding a lighter under a grasshopper, being cruel to our dogs to hurt me, lying about an imaginary child, blaming everyone, always having new friends and old ones disappear, etc....but mainly almost never acknowledging doing anything wrong nor taking responsibility for how he has hurt me.</p><p></p><p>this isn't substance abuse. It is mental illness.</p><p></p><p>so, I'm going to take it a moment at a time. Take care of me, I.e., now isn't the time to push myself, to diet, etc. I am going to check in with friends often.</p><p></p><p>my heart is broken. I adore my son and want him healthy. But, right now, I can do nothing but stay away. He is sick and can be harmful.</p><p></p><p>*i pray that he will open his heart and see things clearly.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="AmericanGirl, post: 597143, member: 15812"] Sig and Flower, Thank you for responding. I feel better just knowing you felt similar although I'd never wish it on you. i agree that difficult child's verbal/emotional abuse has taken its toll. Flower, difficult child's bio dad had me in the same place. After I divorced him, it felt foreign to sit in my own living room because I had been hiding in my bedroom or bath for many years. my al-anon sponsor has moved two hours away but was in town today. I had lunch w him and my 'local' sponsor. The three of us carry one another. Then I spent the afternoon w my local sponsor. i shared w them I was having suicidal thoughts but won't do anything until I insure difficult child cannot inherit anything to use to destroy himself. It scares me to be inside my head right now. i see a new therapist tomorrow afternoon. I have a list of people to call tonight and my home group meets tomorrow. i know my son is only using bio dad, grandmother, etc because I refuse to allow him to use me anymore. My rational mind tells me that since both of them are users too, that this will crash and burn before along and difficult child will come back to me even more broken. i shared a lot of difficult child's history with both sponsors today. We all believe difficult child would likely be diagnosed as sociopathic. It's things like holding a lighter under a grasshopper, being cruel to our dogs to hurt me, lying about an imaginary child, blaming everyone, always having new friends and old ones disappear, etc....but mainly almost never acknowledging doing anything wrong nor taking responsibility for how he has hurt me. this isn't substance abuse. It is mental illness. so, I'm going to take it a moment at a time. Take care of me, I.e., now isn't the time to push myself, to diet, etc. I am going to check in with friends often. my heart is broken. I adore my son and want him healthy. But, right now, I can do nothing but stay away. He is sick and can be harmful. *i pray that he will open his heart and see things clearly. [/QUOTE]
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