My difficult child tried to kill me on Tuesday night. He put on a mask, gloves, got telephone wire and a filet knife and attacked me when I was asleep. I will never be able to get this out of my mind. He didn't hurt me with the knife and he passed out which is how I got away from him. I think he hyperventilated in the mask. He went to hospital and is being released this morning. The police and my husband will be in the lobby waiting for him. He called last night and asked me when he could come home. My mommy heart is BLEEDING, he's being charged with 3 felonies. Unlawful restraint, Assault 1st and Assault with a deadly weapon. I feel like I'm in a movie. He has never, never, never touched me in anger, we did not argue that night - there was nothing wrong. husband had left on a business trip to Dallas that morning. husband is NOT supportive, wants punishment which difficult child will inevitely get. I want a locked down psychiatric hospital, but it's out of my hands. He admitted that he got high on pot at 6:00 that night and when he went to the hospital they drug tested him and there was no PCP or any other drug that would make him hallucinate. He's going to go to jail for a very long time. He can never come home for fear that he will snap again. All the psychiatrist are calling it a psychotic break but MY psychiatrist says that's what they call it when they don't know what it is. I am still in disbelief. Was I in denial? I don't know but no one in my family can fathom this. I just needed to tell someone. Thank you for listening and please say prayers. We have court at 10am and I don't know how I am going to get through it. He's a minor so as his guardian and the victim, I have to be there. Thanks for listening.