Forums
New posts
Search forums
What's new
New posts
New profile posts
Latest activity
Internet Search
Members
Current visitors
New profile posts
Search profile posts
Log in
Register
What's new
Search
Search
Search titles only
By:
New posts
Search forums
Menu
Log in
Register
Install the app
Install
Forums
General Discussions
The Watercooler
Trying to hang tough with- my toughest Cmas so far
JavaScript is disabled. For a better experience, please enable JavaScript in your browser before proceeding.
You are using an out of date browser. It may not display this or other websites correctly.
You should upgrade or use an
alternative browser
.
Reply to thread
Message
<blockquote data-quote="Steely" data-source="post: 329133" data-attributes="member: 3301"><p>Thank you Susie. I am glad you guys understand. It is a deeply painful feeling. </p><p></p><p>K I do <em>try</em> to look at the glass half full, and I truly am thankful for what I do have, but I am not always successful at keeping the glass half full in my brain. I know if I have a job and a house in this day and age that should be the number one thing I am grateful for. And I am, although perhaps not as much as I should. I get so weighed down in the feeling of losing Matt, it feels suffocating - even though it is a feeling and not a reality - and I should be able to discern the 2. I know.</p><p></p><p>I read the other day that there is new research that shows that people who are biologically/chemically depressed cannot hold onto happy feelings or emotions for as long of a period of time as those who are not depressed. I thought that was interesting, and it explains a lot in my life.</p><p></p><p>Hugs and thanks for the support. And I am sorry if I came across as not being grateful. (I am going to try and start journaling again. I need to. Gabe called the other day, and I told him what was wrong, and he just barked at me ~ "Amber write! You know you need to, so do it!" He is so correct. He sees it, I see it, I just need to do it.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Steely, post: 329133, member: 3301"] Thank you Susie. I am glad you guys understand. It is a deeply painful feeling. K I do [I]try[/I] to look at the glass half full, and I truly am thankful for what I do have, but I am not always successful at keeping the glass half full in my brain. I know if I have a job and a house in this day and age that should be the number one thing I am grateful for. And I am, although perhaps not as much as I should. I get so weighed down in the feeling of losing Matt, it feels suffocating - even though it is a feeling and not a reality - and I should be able to discern the 2. I know. I read the other day that there is new research that shows that people who are biologically/chemically depressed cannot hold onto happy feelings or emotions for as long of a period of time as those who are not depressed. I thought that was interesting, and it explains a lot in my life. Hugs and thanks for the support. And I am sorry if I came across as not being grateful. (I am going to try and start journaling again. I need to. Gabe called the other day, and I told him what was wrong, and he just barked at me ~ "Amber write! You know you need to, so do it!" He is so correct. He sees it, I see it, I just need to do it. [/QUOTE]
Insert quotes…
Verification
Post reply
Forums
General Discussions
The Watercooler
Trying to hang tough with- my toughest Cmas so far
Top