After all that has gone on I was not doing well. I started smoking again, quit excercising, and was not doing well. Got an anti depressant about a week ago, quit smoking (last cigarette was Tuesday) and started excercising(went yesterday). It was sad, I have not been the the gym for a month and a half and have been smoking for about a little more than a month. The last time I went to the gym I did 45min on the elliptical on a hill function difficulty level 3 and 20min or more of weights. Yesterday I did 20min on elliptical and 10min weights. I don't think the ad is working yet, or is kinda working. I figure if I post this here I can come back for encouragement. I have a little gym I can use at work for free and have been going before I go to work while the kids are out of school. When they go back I will go on my days off plus one day on the weekend. My goal is to work out 3 times (at least) weekly. I think that excercise is essential to pulling out of the funk I have been in.