I get that we won't be able to diagnose any mental illness until he is clean.
We finally tracked him down, and talked to his roommate and some friends. Roommate says the eratic mania like behaviour started last Thursday, peaking Monday, the day I saw him and noticed the rapid speech etc.... resulting in him taking benzos for four days. He has admitted to the benzo use since Tuesday.
I told him he is choosing drugs over his school and over his life. He agreed and said he would stop. He seems to think he can just stop. He thinks this is just a slip.... I don't think he has any idea how serious this is and how it will be impossible for him to find sobriety using will power alone.
We took his two cats back to our house as it's not fair to them. He has been gone for 2/3 days and they had no food. Husband is allergic so we need to rehome them. Ugh.
I don't know how people survive a child's addiction... I feel like I'm losing my mind some days. I cried most of today.
We are actually going to the beach tomorrow since it's supposed to be nice with our best friends. Part of me wants to help him clean his apartment but I am not willing and it's not in his best interest. We dropped off cleaning supplies when we picked up the cats.
I'm not confident he will make it. He isn't taking it as serious as this episode was.
I do think we are dealing with mental illness compounded by drug use and addiction. I really do. There may be a chance it's totally the drugs and I hope it is honestly.... but who knows at this point.
