My beautiful but troubled daughter and I spent wonderful day on her 18th birthday. We spent the whole day together, getting our hair done, shopping, talking, laughing. She borrowed my car that night to go the movies with friends. That was over a month ago and I haven't seen her since. I received 1 text message asking for her car (which she hadn't finished paying me for yet) and then a phone call telling me she was coming to see me. Then I never heard from her again. My oldest son passed away weeks before his 20th birthday. That was 8 years ago. I nearly died with grief. He was an incredible young man. Now to have my youngest turn her back on her entire family has torn my heart out all over again. If it wasn't for my other daughter and her wonderful fiance I don't think I would survive. I just wish I could understand. She was 1 month away from graduating high school, taking a college class and doing wonderful in it, captain of the varsity volleyball team. And she just walked away. She was supposed to be her sister's maid of honor in 2 weeks. Now she never wants to see any of her family again. My minister keeps telling me I will get through this. But it really feels like God has just piled on too much. I had another death in the family this weekend, and my awol daughter's friends have been harassing me. One sent a barrage of threats via text msg. And my beloved boxer who helped me keep my sanity was killed today. I miss my kids arms around me and my dogs slobery kisses. I'm trying to move on with my life but the grief is just too much right now. Except for her sudden pretending to be a serious drug addict she was a delightful child. We got along well, no fights over loud music, or helping around the house, nothing. I just can't comprehend where he sudden hatred came from. It's like the daughter I knew just stopped existing. Any advice anyone can give on how to move on would be greatly appreciated. I don't think my heart will ever heal.