....when you're depressed and you don't want to do anything, but you don't want to do nothing? But when you do something, you go...eh...and don't want to be doing it. I think I waited too long to increase my medications. I want to be left alone with no demands on me, but I don't want to be alone. Nothing "fits" and nothing makes sense right now. I see therapist Wednesday. I think I'll call tomorrow and see if she has any cancellations for earlier in the week. And I really don't like Thanksgiving. I'd like to just skip out on it all together, but everyone would be upset. Plus, I have to be the buffer between difficult child and my mom. I'm just rambling. Sorry. Just feeling kinda lost. Don't like the feeling one bit. Thanks for listening.