Hi guys, appreciate all your love, care n advise. I had left out some details in my post previously. Some of you are spot on. My son does struggle with his sexual identity n it is extremely difficult in an Asian society as well as we are a Christian family . However, I have told him I would rather have a guy son than a dead son.
My son was very difficult as a toddler but he had an exceptional memory. School was a breeze in elementary school until he went to high school n had problems coping. As a 13 year old boy, he was crying nightly for 6 months. That was when we had him assessed by an educational psy who diagnosed him to be an Asperger. But things were not adding up as my son is very articulated, very good at reading facial cues etc n he writes exceptionally well. However, he was just not coping in his school work. By the time he was 18, he dropped out from school as he was unable to sleep, feeling anxious and often falling ill. Prozac was prescribed n he toOK it for a while. His online gaming got intense n he just spiralled down.No desire to do much but to eat, sleep n go online. Also told us he's v miserable n eventually hopes to kill himself. Then he stops going to church, calls himself an atheist yer still unhappy. Any suggestions or encourage mentioned to engage in activities to help himself was met with hostility n would end up either in a shouting match or have him walking off from us.
As this was all getting too much for me to cope, I started psychotherapy. My therapist met with my son on a few occasions n eventually told me he thinks my son is not an Asperger but a Schizoid. I hadn't even heard of this disorder before. But I didn't tell son as he is already feeling bitter than he is an Asperger. One thing peculiar about son is that he remembers every unpleasant thing that has happened to him since he was a kid. He remembers the exact words spoken to him , the exact facial expression the perpetrator had while speaking to him. So all memories haunt him as if they just happened yesterday. He doesn't forgive because he says it's easier to be angry than to forgive. Even his counsellor has run out of ways to help him. However, he doesn't want to see someone else as he's tired of repeating his life stories n he can't trust anyone with his stories. Sorry to go on and on. Because, there's no one else in my life now who can advise me as my family has tried everything.
