I also can identify with what Heather said.
I have a few things I can't wait to do but for now they are on the back burner.
When my girls were young, before difficult child really started showing her strong difficult child-ness, I went back to school and thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it, even the homework! I had a perfect 4.0!! H was not very supportive and it seemed like he always worked later on the nights I needed him home on time. I had to hire a sitter for the gap between when I left and he arrived. As difficult child became more difficult child-y I had to cut my classes back and then eventually stopped going; I fell into a depression. H noticed and tried to encourage me to return, but I felt broken and resigned. School for me is still on the back burner for now (especially with easy child's college expenses!), but I am not resigned - I know it will always be there and I feel closer to it these days as difficult child is older and well, at some point, I will have to let her go.
Things like knitting, kickboxing, and self pampering are the things I most look forward to. For now, my hobbies are gardening and cleaning, reading and, when I get the opportunity, writing. When difficult child is being easy child, I find myself waiting for the other shoe to drop because I know it's just a matter of time before difficult child comes back.
Friday kicks off an *almost* difficult child-free week for me! difficult child is going to her dads Friday through Sunday. Monday is her last day of school and then her senior class leaves Tuesday through Thursday NIGHT on their senior trip. She will return Friday and then she graduates on Saturday (hopefully-still not sure, ugh).
