I know that I cherish each day of Nichole's stabilty. :smile:
But for months I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Probably will sound weird, but I was MORE on edge than when her moods were flipping and I had to deal with the rages and such. I was stuck in anticipation mode I think.
It has eased off considerably recently. Even when Nichole and her b/f argue I don't position myself so that I can hear/see what is going on. God, that's so nice. (this used to be an extremely volitile situation)
Still in the back of my mind I know there can come a time when Nichole slips over the edge and back into the chaos. And to not be realistic about that would be foolish. I've just learned over these months that I can't keep my life on hold dreading that possible moment.
As far as Travis goes, he will never be a easy child so there is no point in dreaming of the "what ifs". But I can't say he's doing bad as a difficult child. He is who he is.
